Suicide?

[bacon]

I had a nice long talk with Bacon lastnight, I suppose he talked something into me.



Glad I could help. Anytime brotha

[Xetox]

Things can always get worse, but the worse it gets the easier it is the see the things that can make it better. Everything happens for a reason, and you have to learn to believe that!



If getting away for awhile is what you need then go for it.....do what ever it takes to make yourself happy, once you are happy you can start making those around you happy once again!

[Newbie]

Look deep inside yourself, and you will find happiness. Happiness is like love, no outside source can give it to you. Only you can give it to yourself, look to yourself for something. Relationships are always going to go bad, it's called human nature. BUT for every one that goes bad, there is another out there waiting to go good.



Suicide is just dumb, I was declared legally dead for 9.35 mins but not by my own hands. Being apart of death it self teaches one how precious life really is. Yes I have thought about death and how better off things would be without me, until it actually happened and things that changed afterwards. Only thing I remember from my NDE is a feeling almost a voice telling it's not your time, and a pressure pushing me back. Most of all I felt very much alone, to be totally alone is very frightening. I thank god everyday that I am alive.



Kain dont give up hope, there is always something better, but it is something you must find yourself.

[Hobo_Bill]

I'm not gonna write the same (no offense, guys) sugar-coated-dripping-with-honey bullshit. I've always wondered what the point of life was, and always wondered if I'd ever figure it out. You think about the billions of people on this planet and why you're so special that you shouldn't just end it right now. Who the fuck would care? Those 2 friends that you've still got, they'd care. Me, I'd care, cuz shit, you're all over the edited muds. Problem is you don't care. I jumped off a 6th story balcony at a hotel party I threw when I was hard into the drug scene in Corpus Christi, Tx. Course I changed my mind as I jumped, reached around and grabbed the bars, pulled myself up and over, went back inside, and got severely jacked up. At the time, it was something to live for - getting high. Now, I'm drug free (cannabis is an HERB goddamnit) and working the 9-5 5 day a week bullshit job that doesn't pay quite enough for me to advance my station in life - ie: move out of my girlfriend's mom's house, fix my junker car, find a better paying job, get some technical training to make more money. I'm still fucking depressed even though I'm not nearly as low as I was 2 years ago jumping off the balcony. Life still sucks. And for me, it will until I have 10 billion dollars to spend, a woman that hits me in that special spot, and a family of my own that loves me - well, a family, period would be nice. That's what I live for now. And it takes time, dude. You might be low now, but with a little effort and some patience, you will be happy sometime. I used to enjoy talking to homeless folks that hung out around my local Circle K convenience store, finding out how their life used to be, and what knocked it down. There are some really intelligent people living on the street simply because they gave up caring, trying, living, everything. They might as well be dead, right? Except that even on the street, they affect someone's life. They almost all know each other, and have a community and lifestyle of their own, as different as it is from ours. So, like your 2 friends, they've got people that care too. And hell, they might have goals too - $1.25 for that 40, $5.95 for a pint of the hard shit!! I dunno, and really, all this typing I've just done, it might mean nothing to you, but it's the way I think about shit, and how I've coped with all the shit I've put myself through in my lifetime. It might help you see things in a different light, and if so, that's fuckin great, dude, it'll be good to see your name on MMB some more. Because really, why kill yourself? You only get one life, bro, and whatever experiences you get from it are worth their weight in gold when you're 98 and ready to kick the bucket. Whatever happens to you, it COULD get worse. But if you don't stick around to find out, you might miss it when it gets so much fucking better. That's not my 2 cents, that's my buck fitty.

[Voodoo_Chile]

Kain, ol' boy, I like you. You're a southern rebel hell raiser. I don't think blowing your brains out would be your best option. If you REALLY want to committ suicide, i'd say go out like a proud southern gentlemen. Either buy yourself a gallon of Wild Turkey, slam it down with about 30 valiums OR grab an old sawed off shotgun, walk into a bank and hold the joint up. Steal all the money and head to Mexico. If you make it, cool. You'll have all that money and will be sitting down in ol' Mexico sucking down coronas and fucking the dogshit out of Mexican hookers (or Mex'can blackbirds, as we call 'em) and if you don't make it, you can go out in a blaze of glory. Imagine having a shootout with the Texas Rangers and the border patrol on your way to Mex'co after a daring daylight bank heist? Wow! Now that's how you should go out. I don't want you to kill yourself, but if you SERIOUSLY want to do it, I'm urging you to go balls-to-the-wall with it. Either Whiskey and pills or a good ol' fashioned showdown. Don't go out any other way. It would be unfair to you and your family name.

[Xetox]

lol, leave it to voodoo....you rock bro ;) Its never worth it to kill ur self, but he is right if you going to do it, do it with a bang, have fun doing it, it will most likely be your last chance to enjoy yourself! I dont know about the bank idea......my luck they would just wound my ass and hall me off to the pokie! And that my brothers would just suck a big donkie dick!

[Kain]

Laugh, things really haven't gotten any better. I am however steady on the bottle. Keeps me down enough to not get upset. Wild Turkey is my choice of the night tonight. That's why I find this post funny!!! I'd fuck the Rangers up. The army only trained me how to be a sniper. I have however changed my outlook on things a bit. I went and got a haircut and shaved. Fuck em all. If I decide to go out I promise you'll see it on ALL the news channels. It'll be big. However things would have to get ALOT worse than they are now. The bottle keeps me calm enough to keep myself stupid enough to not do anything stupid

[Xetox]

Dude you should just move here, be southerns like me and voodoo....

[Kain]

Dude you should just move here, be southerns like me and voodoo....





I am southern, hell I speaks redneck....I live in freakin Texas of all places....abilene freakin texas....