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Anyone here ever think about it? I do just about everyday. I carry my hand gun everywhere that I go just for this reason. I often wonder why I came into this world. I mean doesn't everyone have a reason to be here? I haven't found mine yet, I wonder if I ever will. Things have just been REALLY BAD lately. I often wonder if they could get any worse. I mean I'm down to only 2 friends outside of this place. My girl refuses to talk to me because of some of the things she thinks I've done. I don't even know what the use is anymore. I don't really have anyone to talk to. I'm just kinda rambling on. I know that no one wants to read this but oh well. I'm going to type it out anyway. Screw it. I suppose things tend to work out for the better, but do they really?

Honestly, I have no damn clue if shit ever gets better. I've been in a similar situation, and have been thinking the same shit, from suicide to wtf is my purpose. I dont really have anythign inspirational to say. All I know is I think about it alot, and have come VERY close to doing it on more than one occasion. You probably dont want to hear that, I bet you wanted something inspirational like "Yeah, stuff does get better" but maybe it doesnt always, its only a chance it gets better and a chance it gets worse. Before I personally actually commit suicide, It's going to be becuase I've weighed that scale, and found its not worth it to even take the chance anymore. sorry i could say something inspirational. oh well, my 2 cents are in.

You want to know the truth, I know what gun oil tastes like, the round was a dud. This is what I know. I've put that damn thing in my mouth on three different times, and for some reason or another something has stopped me. I've only pulled the trigger once. The other two times have been different things. I just don't know what to do anymore. I just had a nice long talk with someone that I consider to be a really good friend. He seems to have made some sense. I'm not sure though. I suppose that I'll wait out a while longer and see what happens with things in my life.

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The name chosen for this forum is really horrible.



I wish I could say things got better..but I've been hit rock bottom, and been there for the past 3 years. My situation seems a tad worse off than yourse, though..I've never attempted suicide, and I never would..but I often think.. What would happen if I died tomorrow? Who would care? The way I see it is, if at least 1 person would care, that's reason enough. I know my family would never give up on me, that's why I said I've never attempted suicide and I never will.



My problem is, I'm too young and too stupid to do the things that would make my life any better..so, in light of that, I somewhat blame a lot of my 'misfortune' on myself..sure my whole situation is a result of not only my actions, but others as well..but I just view it like - I could have taken certain things better, or made better decisions..and I knew it at the time, I just didn't. I don't know why. That just makes me more determined to do something about it...but notice I only said 'more' determined..I have a very bad outlook on everything, the way I think is like everything that happens to me will turn out bad, but everything that happens to other will be OK. I can't help thinking like that..I just do.

Well, Ill be the first to admit that I dont know much about life; Im way too young to understand it all. But there are a couple things that I do know. One, when you hit rock bottom, theres only one way to go but up. Ive been there before, and I can honestly say that though it takes time, things for me are getting better. And two, if youre not here to live your life, youll never know how things turn out. Noones future is written yet, theres countless possibilities of how things may turn out; hopefully most are good, but of coruse there will also be times that arent so good. Thats life. But if one takes all those possibilities away, theyll never know how things wouldve turned out, and they still wont have the answers that theyre looking for. Its up to every person to write theyre own future, noone else can write it for you. Dunno how to end, but ima start writin the rest of my future. Just my .02

Over the last few years, I have more than once contemplated suicide, yes I have attempted it a couple of times, If we knew why we are here, it wouldn't be a challenge now would it. If our purpose was laid out for us, life would be dull and boring. Suicide isn't always the greatest option, and "IF" you actually succeed with the deed, what makes you think that you'll be better off?



I say IF for good reason, an aquaintance of mine, sucked on the barrel of a 30,30. But he didn't die. He is a vegetable today, is his life better off now, I doubt it. He sits in a wheelchair, he can't feed himself, he can't talk, he shits & pisses himself all day long. So was it worth it to him, was it worth it to his family?



You might succeed, but what about the people you leave behind, what about your family, do you think they'll be better off without you? I dont mean to seem like an asshole on this, but Suicide is the chicken way out. To you things might seem like it isn't worth it to continue. BUT there are people who are a hell of alot worse off than you, and they continue on. Yes it is your LIFE, but think about how many people your LIFE affects.

if you think about it, suicide is stupid and selfish. i've been in suicidal positions as well... what will you gain by committing suicide? you will put those who cared about you in a confused and sad state themselves, and you'll leave them thinking "what could I have done".



i've attempted as well, and i regret it everyday. i look at the marks on my arm and i think how STUPID i was. i think that because now things are better, i'm with the girl of my dreams who is sexy and smart as a whip, and i'm just so happy for that



how old are you kain? just outta curiosity

A few years ago, yes I thought about it.....I can tell ya it does get better..



Women - don't let them get to ya, when that right one comes you will know it...I refuse to settle down until that one woman comes into my lifes and just flips my wig!



Nothing is worth ending your life! Find one thing that makes you happy and go with it...the rest will just fall into place!



Platinum if you all can think of a better name for this forum I will change It!

I've thought about it. Many times.

Well, I've really been thinking about things. Yeah sure they are bad. Can they get worse, hell yes they can. I had a nice long talk with Bacon lastnight, I suppose he talked something into me. I'm going to give things some more time before I do something rash. When I decide to do something rash it most likely won't be suicide. Maybe just going away for awhile could be an answer. Who knows for sure. Six years is a nice long time to spend with one person. She's the light of my life. Things just have recently become terrible. My way inlife has become clouded. Things aren't as clear anymore. I keep asking myself why why why why.........